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Played some more Yume 2kki with friends. No pretty locations today, just did Obstacle Course.

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Slept for 10 hours, for the first time in a very long time. Felt kinda refreshed. Got up, it was already dark. Still not feeling like doing much…

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Went back to the cozy spot. Constant melancholy and light sadness.

Finally played some more Yume 2kki.

We did an expedition, and met some random player that joined us. And then got to the place on screenshot above. Then got a badge. And then player casually mentions that they created the badge for this place some years ago. I love coincidences like this.

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Woke up at 4 PM, ate and went to gym.

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Got home, and tried to photograph moon from the binoculars. It’s difficult. Then just listened to ambience and layed on the floor.

Drank the rest of the wine.

After 3 hours of sleep, got woken up by deliveryperson. My binoculars arrived. I got the box and went back to sleep. Then another call, and person from cleaning service came. Landlord is paying someone to clean apartment once a month and also to check that the apartment’s in good condition. She cleaned it, and went away.

Then another call… this time from brother. He told me that we should go to gym, and I agreed. He came over and I told him to come in to show him the binoculars. They’re cool, and have 20X zoom. I love zooming. We waited 30 minutes for moon to appear from horizon.

Unfortunately, it’s almost impossible to take a photo from binoculars, so this is the only one I could take, just from my phone’s camera. But in binoculars moon looks so cool.

In the end, we didn’t go to gym. Talked a lot, and then went to parents, as they wanted me to see the room renovations that were done. My and brother’s rooms now have wooden walls, and look kinda like these wooden houses, which is cozy.

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We instantly turned back and went away.

Got back home and fell asleep. Woke up at 2 AM. Stared at screen, ate some more cheese with wine.

Got cozy in the best spot in the apartment and watched the sky with binoculars. You can see so many more stars with them.

Didn’t sleep enough. Had 2 online classes. Didn’t even get up from bed for them, just joined with laptop. Got my assignments and bye-byed. Only got up from bed at 7:40 PM. Cleaned apartment, washed the dishes, put out laundry, and went out to throw out the garbage.

Went to a restaurant to finally eat for the first time.

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Stayed up until 8 AM, thinking, reminiscing, and talking to people. Seems that I’m tired. I’m tired of the constant grind. It definitely would be better if I took more time off to spend on doing fun things.

Had to wake up "early", at 1 PM. Didn’t sleep enough, but I had online class to attend. Got a short explanation and assignments to do, and was left alone. Then had another class that went the same way, and was free for the day.

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Made a bowl of cereal with milk. Despite the commonness, it’s my first time ever eating it. Apparently I wasn’t supposed to put a whole ass bag into the bowl, so I made too much and had to throw some out. 😔

Opened wine and ate Brie cheese. Yummy.

Drank more than I wanted, so got a bit drunk. Went to bed and fell asleep, and woke up at 3 AM. Quite a bad day to fuck up your sleep schedule. Got up.

It was 4 AM. While at computer, I heard a weird sound. I took off my headphones. I think I heard someone trying to open my door. I took knife I cut cheese with and went through the apartment, but there was noone.

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Brother and old roommate came over and we played some fighting game on PS4. It was fun, and I didn’t even suck at it.

Also ate a ton of pizza.

After that we played a card game called Munchkin, which I won! Interestingly, I played this game 3 times throughout my life, each time with around 1-2 year intervals, and won every single time. 100% Winrate.

Decently productive day. Coded ███████████████████████████

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Another █████████████ class done. After that did exam for another class afte and got 31/40. Got ready, and then we went to parents. It’s █████████████████. After that we picked up other guests and got to a restaurant to celebrate.

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There was my godfather’s wife. My godfather is currently at war. I told her that if her husband needs anything bought, they can tell me and I’ll gladly help.

My brother has 2 godfathers. They are close friends of our family, so they were always included in all celebrations. One of them was diagnosed with cancer, and is going through chemotherapy, so he was absent. The other had stroke, and half of his body wasn’t working properly. He basically can’t talk and struggles to walk, but he was still with us.

Once again, this reinforces my fear of aging. God, I really need someone to create anti-aging medication already and I need to be rich as fuck to be able to afford it.

I like that the restaurant had a fireplace. I ate a lot of cheese and drank a lot of wine. Got quite drunk, we had our fun, parents were a bit annoying as they always are when drunk.

Brother brought them home and then we went to my old roommate and he borrowed us PlayStation 4. We never played or had any console ever in our lives. Played It Takes Two together, which was fairly fun, and went to sleep.

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Because brother’s room is being renovated and other beds in the house are taken by workers, my brother came over to live with me for next few days. He gifted me a nice tshirt:

Overall, an uneventful but productive day. Coded quite a lot. I once again got into the rhythm and can code continuously until perfection.

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The year was 1975. My dad, young and impulsive, left school early to attend a tractor college. In the USSR, it was common for students to be sent to different republics for hands-on work. At just 14 years old, he and a group of boys no older than 16 were sent to Kazakhstan to help with farm and factory tasks.

He found himself working on a farm near a tiny village in the middle of the vast steppe, where no more than 100 people lived.

The full moon hung brightly in the sky, casting pale light over the village. My dad was resting in a dimly lit building when two large, middle-aged men suddenly barged in. One of them spoke in a cold, menacing tone: "Put on your clothes. We’re going to kill you."

The man blocked the only exit. Adrenaline surged through his veins. "Is this how it ends for me?" he thought.

Complying, he moved toward the hanger, pretending to search for his clothes. Then, in a split second, he made his move — charging full force at the man guarding the door. Caught off guard, the man stumbled and fell. My dad didn’t stop to look back; he sprinted into the darkness.

The farm was a maze of stables and buildings. Heart pounding, he ran around a stable, the men’s shouts fading momentarily. Spotting a small window, he knew it was his only chance. Despite its narrow frame, he squeezed through and tumbled inside.

He held his breath, listening as the men ran past, unaware of his hiding place. They searched for over an hour, their voices growing fainter until silence returned.

When he was sure it was safe, he crawled out of the barn and slipped into the open fields. Climbing onto a hay bale, he looked up at the moon. Its cold light bathed the steppe, but he no longer cared. He was alive.

Dad called me telling that mom will fry ribs and that I should come home (what an alluring proposal). I haven’t ate anything yet, so I decided to come. I quickly put lens in (only in 5 minutes), and got in the car.

My room has been renovated with new wooden walls. It kinda looks like an old wooden hut, which is cozy. My brother’s room was under renovation after mine, so my room was filled with random stuff from his room.

I ate and talked with family. Brother was absent, since he was in the ██████████████████████████████.

It snowed a little. Seems like every time I go to parents it snows… maybe I should visit them more often.

My eyes felt really dry and sleepy for the entire day for some reason.

Went to supermarket, bought some groceries with dad and came home. Then fell asleep. Apparently it snowed quite a lot while I was asleep, and it was already over :(

Not sure what I even did today… Layed in bed a lot and then stared at screen…

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