We were traveling through the USA when we stopped at a strange, deserted gas station. It had a weird minigame: after paying for gas, you earned a «gift point» and could throw a disk at a cassette stand. Whatever cassette you hit, you could take with yourself. The person working there warned us only to play if we had gift points.

After I paid for gas, I gave it a try and ended up with some unremarkable cassette I didn’t pay much attention to. Then, for some reason, my friend decided to throw a disk too, even though he hadn’t bought any gas.

As he threw it, I noticed that the spot he was aiming for held these strange, empty-gray cassettes. I yelled for him to stop, but it was too late. As the disk sailed toward the stand and my friend realized something was wrong, he closed his eyes, trying to not see what he had hit.

The moment the disk struck one of the gray cassettes, he was violently pulled toward the stand with a huge force. In the impact, it seemed like he glimpsed what cassette he had gotten, but before I could reach him, he simply vanished — gone without a trace.

I was hit with a sudden wave of anxiety — and then I woke up. I was not able to sleep for a while after, despite only sleeping for 3 hours.

It’s really weird because before this, it was a pretty long and uneventful dream and I had been travelling with him for a while in it.

Law got accepted!!! Now just needs to be signed by president!

Haven’t really done anything productive today. Went to gym and finally went to pool for the first time. When going to gym I realized that my intercostal neuralgia is almost definitely caused by physical activity / muscle growth in chest. I was suspecting this years ago, and now when I didn’t have any pain for months and suddenly having it exactly when started going to gym just proves it. I told this my brother any finally I signed up to get medical check-up at hospital.

Got really tired after gym and pool. Read SCP-8980, and just… wow. This is the most fucked up thing I’ve read in SCP so far. And I’ve never even seen content warnings in SCP before, it was this bad. But the story and writing itself is amazing.

Looks like I can only remember dreams if I go to sleep at about 2 am, since I actually sleep full 8 hours then. It was a bit nonsensical, too much random stuff going on to really make a good story, but at the end I was shown a very cozy bridge over the river by Aira. They then jumped from it and swam to the other side, while I had to go celebrate someone’s birthday for some reason.

Actually it seems that I slept for 9 hours today, so that’s why I’m feeling rested and had a dream. I’ve noticed a long time ago that no matter when I go to sleep, I always wake up at 11. It has been a long running curse for me, as it doesn’t allow me to rest properly all the time, since I often don’t go to sleep until 4-5 am.

As I’m writing this, I just realized the possible reason for why is this happening. About 4 years ago, my brother kept waking me up at about 10-11 am every single day no matter if I had to do anything or not. I kept telling him that I don’t need to do anything today but he never listened, we kept arguing every morning, sometimes we had mini fights, he would take my blanket, would keep coming in my room to make sure I didn’t fall back also again.

No wonder my brain keeps waking up on it’s own now, somehow always perfectly at 11. And I have no idea how to ever recover from this, it’s my dream to just be able to sleep through brightest and hottest part of day.

I looked up some messages and sure enough:

Man.

Continued coding uExpress today. More progress:

Supporting multiple mountpaths took the longest time. Got to use a stack for the first time in my programmer life.

Had a very long dream that I was in Yume 2kki, which was very, very cool. I always wanted to be inside such dreamy locations. ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

Went outside to withdraw money for rent. Got carbonara for breakfast.

Rested in the park.

I thought that anime shop has closed forever, but nope! I was just always unlucky with timing. I bought some cool things:

Updated diary to support multiple image uploads and zoom (image viewer) on all images.

Been kinda researching how other VPNs work, seems like they just use WireGuard under the hood. Maybe I should just use that too, since it has clients for every OS.

Played Yume 2kki again at the end of the day. Drank kiwi Ramune, and it actually has quite a mild flavor. I expected it to be super saturated or something, I’m not sure if I’m disappointed or not.

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Woke up from a very familiar nightmare.

I kinda forgot about this until now, but in my memory I had something quite weird about my godparents. I remember them having an extremely weird apartment in the city, which was series of tunnels made as if they’re normal apartment. In the dream I could actually remember the layout from my childhood, but when I woke up I couldn’t exactly remember full layout anymore.

In the dream I was walking in the rainy city and saw a Computer Club and one of my godparents there, and I got a nostalgia hit. I greeted them and followed them into their club first (I don’t think it was that business irl), and then after walking in a bit I entered the tunnels, which all had typical for apartments wallpapers, and it generally looked like a very stretched around apartment. In my dream I knew that once I go even further down, I need to go to the left which would have a larger room and exit to other part of city, but then when I did it in the dream, there only was turn right, and that godparent just disappeared. I slowly turned right and also saw an opening to a larger room, but it was all like in construction, and then I heard them say «don’t worry about below» and I realized that the floor I was standing on barely held me without breaking. And then they jumped on me, trying to attack and I woke up.

I still don’t know if this is any true at all, it might have just been a weird childhood dream that I had (and I feel like I must have had it multiple times).

I’ve had this multiple times when I could remember locations and people from dreams I didn’t have for decades clearly. It feels like some part of brain’s memory unlocks while you’re dreaming.

Very hot today again. Woke up dizzy for some reason, felt like I’m drunk for like 3 hours. Watched Drive movie, which I kinda expected more from. Added site and admin statistics tracking to Nekoweb.

Tomorrow is the last day for me to ████████████████████████████████, and I don’t know if I should do it or not.

Most likely not, the only thing that’s left is hoping…