Had to recode almost whole sync thing because apparently you have to get filehandle to remove a filter in tc. But the code is ending up quite beautifully.

Also started adding IPv6 support.

Today we played Collective Unconscious for the first time. There was a really large group today (10 people), which in a way ruined the atmosphere a little… Hard to keep calm with so many people. We visited a lot of worlds and got 3 effects (eidola).

Average world quality definitely seems to be higher than in 2kki. One world really stood out:

It reminded me of rainy pine forest. I miss it.

I thought that brother didn’t me visit for a while, so I thought I’d call him after having breakfast. Just as I ate the breakfast he called me and came over lol.

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Finally called IRS to get my EIN. This was scary. It took around 25 minutes of waiting in line for them to reply. A fast-speaking woman then proceeded to ask me questions:

• is my business located in USA? I was super nervous so I was immediately confused and couldn’t answer properly at first lol. I was «uhh I called USA IRS, so I guess it is»
• asked if I’m located in USA
• asked for my address, again I was confused if it was my personal address or business one. I told her it, and I was suspicious that she didn’t ask any questions about pronunciation.
• asked for my birthdate. I suck at pronouncing numbers in English, so that was a little scary
• asked for filing date. I had to search through my email for this one. She was really insistant about this, and when I wasn’t sure she directly told me "is this really the date or only probable date". I told her that registrar told me they faxed it on ██████████████.
• asked for my business address. My registrar had some quite weird address with weird letters at the end that I don’t think I pronounced correctly, but she didn’t seem to ask more questions
• then asked for business name. We had to go letter by letter for Kicya. Kee Ai See Wai Ei.
• asked for business registration date

Luckily, she found it immediately. I was super relieved that my answers actually weren’t fucked up lol. She then dictated the numbers, and told me that I’ll soon get the document that actually proves my EIN.

«Hardest part» of making business done (making calls).

Took melatonin last night for the first time (well first time taking correct dosage), and it worked really good. I started feeling fairly sleepy after 30 minutes and fell asleep after a hour. Woah.

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I’m tired of people opening UltimateExpress issues!!! When will this end!!!

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Finished watching Chobits today. Kinda teared up at the end, which is an indicator of good anime.

I think it’s a 8/10 from me.

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Went outside and bought Vitamin D 4000MO, Melatonin 1.5mg and Magnesium. 1.5mg was lowest melatonin dosage I could find, and it’s annoying because even that is already basically overdose. So at night I split the tablet into 1/4 and ate that tiny part.

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Felt sleepy and tired throughout the day as always. Night is really the only time when I get productive. Days pass incredibly quick while nights are productive.

Funny how my entries are shorter when I’m more productive.

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Cleaning person came today, and it was pretty chill.

Because of what happened, I felt frustrated and didn’t feel like doing anything. Fell asleep just before night and fucked up my schedule a little more, but at least I got to be more productive at night. Every time I have a nap like that I always get super productive and can do the most boring things and just generally lock in as hell for the night. Now I coded █████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

Got locked in and coded all day.

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Woke up to pleasant rain sounds. Parents called me and I came down and we went to the supermarket. Bought whatever yummies and things we needed, and went home. Today we’ll have a BBQ. I was really happy because it was raining in mean time.

Me and dad got a fire running and we just chilled under roof during the rain. Our cat came to us and it got even more cozy…

We just talked about business and other things for a while. It was basically the greatest part of the day. Rain, cat, fire. Cozy level maximum.

After wood burnt out we fried the meat.

Once it was done we went in the house and ate it with young potatoes and salads and other things. It was very good.

Then me and dad just went in my favorite room and just chatted for a long time about everything. We also walked outside to see a new fence that was made to protect the chickens… I mean protect the land from chickens, because these dinosaurs will eat every tiny grass piece that exists.

After a while, my brother carried me home, but we also went to the same supermarket on the way to buy a gift for mom, because it’s Day of Mother tomorrow. The rain has already ended, and the clouds… They were so beautiful and low in the sky. It was an incredibly rare time when you could actually see their structure in 3D, instead of them looking like a 2D texture. And parallax effect was very strong because the clouds all were in different height. I really wish I could take it on camera but it just doesn’t look like anything special at all on it (and I tried).

After we bought the gift, the clouds have became whispy and moon has gotten out.

I got home and accidentally fell asleep. I can’t stop taking naps in middle of the day!!

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So sometimes, when I nap during the day, I use a sleep mask and my earpods with sound-blocking and rain/wind noises playing. Today I had an exam at 11, finished at 12, and since I didn’t sleep enough, I put the aforementioned setup and fell asleep.

In the dream, I was living in a new apartment, but it still felt kinda like mine. I went to the supermarket with dad, we spent a long time there, and I bought some snacks or something.

Then I got home and decided to watch something. For some reason, I picked Kanon (probably because of all my research on it before). I started watching it, but everything felt… off. Familiar, but wrong.

It was the scene where Yuichi and Ayu are at that tree. She was telling him about it like it was his first time seeing it, saying it was special to them. Then, out of nowhere, she did some weird magical thing and the tree turned into a kind of mechanical thing. And suddenly, demons appeared and they started fighting them.

I was just sitting thinking “Wait. I don’t remember Kanon being a demon-fighting magic show”.

Looking back now, it’s insane how my brain just fully invented a new episode. After being confused for a while, I noticed I was somehow on season 9 episode 1. (Which, yeah, makes no sense - Kanon only has one season.)

In the dream I thought the site must’ve glitched or something. You know how pirate sites sometimes default to the last season of random shows. So I just went to episode 1, season 1 instead.

I decided to get some snacks, so I went into the kitchen. And on my table, there was a bunch of food. All moldy, rotting. But the thing is, all that food was stuff my mom gave me in real life, exact same things from different times. Except here, none of it was touched. It just sat there, untouched and decaying.

I looked at the snacks I bought earlier and started feeling this huge wave of guilt. That I didn’t eat any of the food she gave me. I just stood there and cried.

I couldn’t really think of watching anything anymore, and in the dream I decided to go to sleep. The layout of the bedroom in dream was identical to mine in reality. Same bed, same everything. I think I fell asleep in the dream, but it was hard to tell because I was already dreaming.

Then I started hearing breathing. Every few seconds - a deep breath.

It scared the hell out of me. For some reason, I thought maybe it was dad, but deep down I knew it wasn’t. Still, I kept pretending to sleep.

Then I started to feel my back really strongly. Like I was hyper-aware of it. I still heard the breathing, and heard the rain sounds (that played irl because of earpods).

And then I felt like I was being… lifted, or pulled up a little. But just slightly, and only through my back.

I tried to open my eyes. I think I did, but everything was still dark. It felt like I was looking at my bed from the opposite angle, like my head was where my feet should be.

And I thought I saw someone above me. Just a silhouette. I wasn’t sure. I was so scared I shut my eyes again and curled up tighter under the blanket.

I kept feeling like someone was touching or moving my back. Just my back.

By then I was half-awake. One of my earpods had fallen out, so I could hear real-life noises from window on one side and the rain sounds on the other. The breathing stopped, but the weird sensation in my back was still there.

I was frozen. Just trying to rationalize it. To stay still and not panic.

Eventually, I opened my eyes again. Still darkness, because of my sleep mask. I slowly got it out and I was finally safe.

Apparently you have to report creation of company to Ukrainian tax service within 60 days, and failure to do so has a penalty of… $20,000. I’m so glad I found out about this early… I started filling the form, but it looks like I need to get EIN first. Which can take anywhere between 2 weeks and several months. Gonna pray it’s gonna be 2 weeks for me.

Have been just doing random things in Photoshop, trying to make pretty graphics. Had to watch a lot of tutorials from 13 years olds published in 2013… It’s peak tho.

Also thinking what widgets should be on my widget site.

Also started watching Chobits.

Another day of thinking about the design. I just keep looking at sites I like, but nothing really strikes the inspiration snowball. I think I need to remake the site from scratch…

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It’s rainy today. The rain was really loud, and I feel like that never happened before in this apartment. I like.

A few days ago, someone DDoSed Nekoweb. I found out a cool program called Logstalgia, and visualized the DDoS.

Looks epic. I added more protections to Nekoweb so it shouldn’t happen again. I got out my old monitor and put it on my computer. I’ll just use it as real-time log visualizer from now on.

It’s running from WSL (which is cool because I never really used any GUI programs in WSL), and it takes data from tail -f log via SSH, which is then piped into Node.js program I wrote to transform the log into usable format.

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The only change I could think of was to make navbar color better. I can’t seem to think how to proceed with this. I’m not satisfied, it’s too empty.

Constant UltimateExpress Issues and PRs annoy me. I had to deal with a bunch of them again today.

Met my brother, and he will soon ████████████████████████████████████████████. I hope it’ll go well for him.

Spent the day thinking about the design of Kicya all day. It’s very difficult. Guts drew a cute mascot for Kicya, and helped me with design of the site.

I ended the day with this:

I’m not sure about it. It’s nice and cute, but I feel like something’s off about it. Maybe it’s too bright. Maybe it’s too empty. I don’t know.

Makes me think that I really want Kicya to stay low-key. I don’t want it to intrude into any services. I don’t want you to ever need to go on the site, unless you just want to know what even is Kicya. All other things should stay interrupted. The register and login page should all be confined to services themselves. They should show that it’s KicyaID, but not redirect to actual Kicya UI.

I think that would be for the best.

I’ve been on search of inspiration for Kicya today. While looking around, I remembered about cute Kanon error pages I found a few months ago:

I saved them many months ago, in case I could ever find a use to them. Of course, I can’t really use copyrighted characters on commercial site, but they were really inspiring to me. I got curious about the creator of these, which was named Woody-RINN, aka 森林りんご, on the page I got these images from. The images were also uploaded 16 years ago.

Eventually, I found links to their sites, which were all down, except for one, which simply said that it has been closed down.

The oldest website, was archived on 1996.

I’m amazed by how good the site looks for it’s time… The dark brick wall as background, it’s literally my exact stereotype for 90s… I was just incredibly pleased.

Some of the images on the site have been dated from early 90s.

Their second site iteration has started in around 2000, and have used lighter tones. This is the version that started using Kanon images.

At some point in my searches, I stumbled upon the 404 error page that used the beautiful Kanon error. I’m sure it used all of them back then.

Apparently they also wrote the beautiful "Piano de Kanon", a piano arrengement of Kanon soundtrack, which you can listen to using the player on top of the page.

Third iteration of the site has been using blogging software they created, called rNote.

They have been actively blogging until 2006. After that, posting ceased. Somewhere in 2010, their website has been replaced with current «temporary closure» message, and have been unchanged since.

In around 2012, there was a vulnerability found in rNote, and they were being seeked by JPCERT Coordination Center, but they were unreachable.

And things have been like this since. Nobody knows where they are now.

Given that they were already known for their works and programs in 1990, they were likely already around 25. So if they’re still alive, they’re likely around 60 now.

I have been looking through all of this, through all these years of memories, and I’m just feeling constant, intense chronophobia.

They left a legacy, and 15 years since their last activity, I searched for them. If I will suddenly disappear, will my Legacy cause someone to search for me, 15 years later? Will someone still remember me? Will I be remembered fondly? I remain trapped in place, and yet can never stop moving.

I downloaded Photoshop CS6, and played around in it trying to come up with a logo. I’m impressed by how nice Photoshop is to use… I really regret using Paint.NET for my entire life now. █████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

Eventually I came up with something I liked.

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