Went to gym today and trained legs again. I’m scared to train hands because when I did it, my neuralgia always came back. So I’m probably just gonna continue training only legs.

When I came on treadmill today, my bpm was 120, even without doing anything, while my brother’s was 80. This sucks, I hope it’ll improve over time.

Ate a quaso after gym.

It was nice and rainy outside.

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More rotting today. Got nothing to do today, except doing more fixing to the same commission…

I want to go to New York. Well, I wanted to do it for the most of my conscious life. But I was recently thinking a lot about how much I want to travel.

For a long time, I was just thinking that I would try and move to Japan, but recently I started to admire other countries a lot too, and I feel like to truly decide on my destination, I’m gonna need to visit all of them. Can’t wait for war to end.

Used washing machine for the first time in my life. It was scary, but everything turned out to be fine and nothing bad happened to the clothes or the machine.

Finally cleaned my desk. I should’ve took picture before cleaning. Even when it’s clean, it’s still messy, but I like it that way.

Finally bought an infrared heater. It’s so satisfying to be in front of it. For some reason it feels better than normal radiator heating.

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Played a bit of Yume 2kki.

We found some ocean place where you can explore the islands.

One island is particularly guarded, and after getting to it, we found a dungeon with actually pretty cool minigame with puzzles, enemies and a boss! And all of that is still in Yume 2kki. Insane how many things this game has. After beating the boss you get the reward — Menu Theme.

Wow, I think anxiety meds actually work. I keep feeling anxiety inside, but it’s very suppressed. It’s an extremely weird feeling. But it feels super awesome to not feel physical pain!

Went to hospital again today. Taxis as always were super duper quick, literally came in 30 seconds! Doctor was kinda disappointing. He checked my legs and said that I’m gonna need to get scanned and get checked at another doctor… Everything was very quick yet expensive. Kinda annoying that I’ll have to go to hospital once again…

Got response from person I made comm for that there was a bug with monitors where pixel density is different from 1. I was thinking it’s basically impossible for me to fix, since I don’t have such monitors, but then realized that I can just open my laptop and have it as my third monitor. I checked it out on laptop, and indeed, it didn’t work.

Seems that robot.js just doesn’t work properly with high density displays, so I had to spend hours on getting screenshots to work with node-ffi. I was very lucky to find some library that had such function, and I finally could get screenshots done. After I switched the screenshotter, for some reason it still didn’t work properly, and I’ve noticed that for some reason, Electron’s screen returns wrong screen offset coordinates for high density display. So I’ve decided to try using node-ffi again, and once again didn’t have much success. After hours of pain and hell I became too desperate and had to open up the beast — Visual Studio 2022. It was much easier to just write a very simple C++ program to get data about displays, and this data had actually accurate offsets this time! So I just compiled it and called it from Node.

After some more bug fixes I finally made everything work. Packaging it was pain again. Because of dynamic import I had to copy some of node_modules and it took a while to figure out which ones I needed.

During me coding all that, suddenly random people started joining the server, and then asked if I made some crypto coin, which I didn’t. It seemingly got 100k marketcap, which is pretty crazy. My site showed 150 people online, and huge amount joined the Discord server. People explained to me that it was just someone trying to profit from my name. Then some guy started sending everyone tons of crypto in server. It was genuinely crazy, and actually sizable amounts ($250+) to basically all active people in the server. He was apparently very rich, with more than 10M dollars earnt this year. ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

Going to hospital soon and will get my guts scanned so I can’t eat today until I get that done. I’ve wanted to get checked at hospital for so long, and it’s finally happening.

Let’s see what I have to complain about:

• Dark spots at my back
• Intercostal neuralgia
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• Kyphosis
• Clubfoot
• Feet are constantly cold from not enough blood circulation
• Anxiety
• Increased heartbeat
• Check vitamins

Well, I got my stomach checked and got blood analysis. Stomach was fine, and I will know about blood analysis result in 2-3 days. This is gonna be the most detailed analysis of my blood in my entire life. But I wanted to complain to them about other things but she didnt really let me. I hope I’ll be able to the next time…

Since I didn’t eat anything before going there, I was super hungry, and we went to some place and got biggest burgers of our lives. Got so full I felt like I’m gonna die. This is kinda why I don’t really like burgers, they’re messy, they’re fast to eat, and you don’t feel satisfied from eating them. I much more like other food that is slower to eat.

At least the atmosphere of that place was nice, brick walls and Frank Sinatra playing.

There has been so many times when I was in a restaurant and thought to myself "this place would be so much better if there was jazz playing". For some reason almost all restaurants play some modern, unmatching to their atmosphere music, and it’s very annoying.

Tried idea with declarative routes a bit more but I realized that it’d only work with ETag disabled in a lot of cases, and it wouldn’t work with if methods are patched, which you can’t really check, so unfortunately it looks like this feature can’t be done. 😔

Brother came over and we started going to the gym, but first went to buy shoes. Saw a cool liminal room:

Today we only went to pool, as we had a free training from a trainer. This was more intense than I expected, and after a hour of training we were quite tired, and decided to go somewhere to eat. There was some place near gym that we were a bit interested in, but we kept being undecideful whether we wanted to go there or not, until we finally decided that we want, but when we went inside it was apparently full. Weirldy that place was serving kinda specific food, and at the same time it was big, so we were surprised that it was actually full.

Went to some other random place instead and got steaks and other stuff:

My brother is always unlucky with what he orders, for some reason his orders are almost always less tasty than mine. We got 2 different steak types and my steak was significantly better.

We were traveling through the USA when we stopped at a strange, deserted gas station. It had a weird minigame: after paying for gas, you earned a «gift point» and could throw a disk at a cassette stand. Whatever cassette you hit, you could take with yourself. The person working there warned us only to play if we had gift points.

After I paid for gas, I gave it a try and ended up with some unremarkable cassette I didn’t pay much attention to. Then, for some reason, my friend decided to throw a disk too, even though he hadn’t bought any gas.

As he threw it, I noticed that the spot he was aiming for held these strange, empty-gray cassettes. I yelled for him to stop, but it was too late. As the disk sailed toward the stand and my friend realized something was wrong, he closed his eyes, trying to not see what he had hit.

The moment the disk struck one of the gray cassettes, he was violently pulled toward the stand with a huge force. In the impact, it seemed like he glimpsed what cassette he had gotten, but before I could reach him, he simply vanished — gone without a trace.

I was hit with a sudden wave of anxiety — and then I woke up. I was not able to sleep for a while after, despite only sleeping for 3 hours.

It’s really weird because before this, it was a pretty long and uneventful dream and I had been travelling with him for a while in it.

Law got accepted!!! Now just needs to be signed by president!

Haven’t really done anything productive today. Went to gym and finally went to pool for the first time. When going to gym I realized that my intercostal neuralgia is almost definitely caused by physical activity / muscle growth in chest. I was suspecting this years ago, and now when I didn’t have any pain for months and suddenly having it exactly when started going to gym just proves it. I told this my brother any finally I signed up to get medical check-up at hospital.

Got really tired after gym and pool. Read SCP-8980, and just… wow. This is the most fucked up thing I’ve read in SCP so far. And I’ve never even seen content warnings in SCP before, it was this bad. But the story and writing itself is amazing.

Didn’t do anything in the first half of the day. Went to gym today, and got to took a better look at the fields:

I really like it when dense city suddenly turns into fields without any suburbs.

We got too tired after gym to go to the pool…

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We finally went to gym, for real this time!

Before going inside, I looked around the parking lot and realized that gym is at the edge of the city. Dense city simply ends and suddenly it’s just endless fields… Which I find so dear and which keep calling me to come to them.

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But I had to resist and we had to finally get inside. We got a free training with personal trainer for the first visit, so he showed us around and told us about some gym things and showed us how to use them. In general, I wanted to go to gym simply because I’m very sedantary and not super fit. I’m not really interested in big muscles and stuff, I just want to start moving more and burn some belly fat.

After doing some muscle training with trainer, we went on a treadmill. When you hold onto it’s iron things, it measures your heartbeat and it was already 130bpm for me, while 90bpm for my brother, which made me quite worried. During most intense running it went up to 170bpm, even though I wasn’t even running 🫣

I googled what’s a good heart rate during running and it said that 170 bpm is already upper limit and that’s usually during running. I think this just indicates how terribly sedantary I am if not even running made my heart rate so high, which is actually scary. Hopefully it’ll improve over time.

After we were done with gym I got another look at the fields and the road going out from city started glowing beautifully.

Brother started driving me home but proposed to maybe go somewhere to eat, but he needed to pick up his girlfriend. He persuaded me to have a dinner with them. It was a tiny bit awkward, since it’s the largest amount of time I ever spent with her around. But the food was nice. We ordered a pizza for everyone (and it was one of the best, or maybe the best pizza I ever had), I got tom yang, they got carbonara and bolognese.

After that I got driven home, and coded a ton of UltimateWS. It’s actually like 65% done now.

Went outside to withdraw money. Stood outside for a while to enjoy the rain, and met tailless cat again. Might be a good sign.

I figured out how to optimize IPs! Now I only read IP when it’s required and if any request ever reads it after response was sent I start reading it always. This way only 1 request at most would be lost. To minimize that from happening I also made it always read IP for first 100 requests.

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After:

Now the difference is really small, HyperExpress is genuinely basically useless now, lol.

Brother came over and we finally decided to go to gym… but it was crowded and shitty again… so we decided to go to more expensive gym afterall, because we both got another discount, but as we came there again it was again kinda scam shit with tiny text saying it cant be used for what we wanted lol. But we still had previous discount and we decided to go with this one after all… It’s just like 10 times better and also had a pool. They took so long at registering us that it was already too late to go actually do anything so we ate and went home. I hope it won’t be a waste of money.

At the end of the day found another optimization opportunity of not creating Socket needlessly, which added another +5k.

Started coding UltimateWS today. I was wondering if I should first finish UltimateWS before publicly publishing UltimateExpress, but I’ve decided that it’d be kinda weird to make 2 announcements at once, so today I actually published Ultimate Express. Honestly, I expected more reaction and interest. While I did get about 50 stars, I don’t think it’s a very good result and I feel a bit disappointed about it. Hopefully it’ll grow more eventually.

It’s been a nice rainy day, all day. I’ve been enjoying rain sounds for a while, and decided to go outside and feel rain on myself. I got winter clothes and went outside, and stood in the rain for a while. I love the feeling of being protected from rain by clothes. If I had a comfortable spot, I would probably just sit down and spend hours just sitting under rain, while hiding in my clothes fully. Clothes that fully cover me and allow me to get inside them are so cozy…

Making Nekoweb use uExpress revealed a bunch of bugs, so I spent the morning fixing the reported stuff while I was asleep.

Today we went to buy sport clothes with brother. Bought 2 t-shirts, shorts and shoes.

In 1 of the shops there was this escalator, and it’s the steepest and fastest escalator I’ve ever been on in my life. I genuinely almost fell while using it, it’s actually dangerous!

After buying clothes we went to sushi place.

Had a nice talk and then went home. When I came home I’ve noticed that energy drinks were back, looks like roommate actually bought them back, so that’s nice.

Continued coding uExpress at home. Fixed more bugs, tried async etag generation (fail), finalized some stuff. Looks like it’s truly done now, I don’t know what else there could be to add. Apart from WebSocket upgrade support, but that’ll need a separate library. Maybe I’ll start writing it tomorrow.

During night read some mangas (rare!) and added some more security stuff to Nekoweb.

It’s unbearable to use computer at day — the sun shines too brightly. I often just spend the time in my bed waiting for it to go away.

Decided to meet brother today, and we went outside to eat and walk around.

Pretty cozy place, I really like the brick wall and lamps on the tree. We both ordered ramen:

After talking and eating food we went to shop and I bought cat socks and some cosmetics.

Another cool brick wall. I’m a big fan of these.

Maybe I’ll start going to gym soon. I have a very sedantary way of life, and I can feel my body feeling tired and bad constantly. I also want to get full medical checkup. While talking about that with brother, he told that we should probably make our dad also get one. Brother came home and talked with dad about it and he surprisingly agreed, so I guess we’ll arrange that soon.

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Apparently today there was a foodfest in the city, so I’ve decided to go and check it out. There was a big line for place where you buy tickets, so I decided to buy a ticket online. After doing it, I realized I need a paper thingy to pass, so I went in line anyway… But then after standing the entire time in line, apparently I could’ve just walked in as people with online tickets pass without immediately. Amazing.

There was quite a lot of different food there, it was quite hard to decide what to buy.

I found bubble tea stand, and bought it to try for the first time ever:

Then I got this:

Everything was nice, but I didn’t like shrimp that much because I didn’t really know how to properly clean it.

I walked around some more and listened to the music. Bought corn and some meat.

Then bought and tried churros for the first time too:

And then decided to leave. I had mixed thoughts about going there, in general it was fine, but I was alone and I don’t like crowd and loud places thaaat much, so I didn’t really enjoy it. But I got to try some cool stuff for the first time, so it was definitely worth it.

Added uploading videos and audios, gallery view for photos (that you can see in this entry).

I don’t like when I have multiple things to do at once, but none of them are urgent. At first half of the day I just rotted in bed, because I couldn’t decide if I want to switch Nekoweb to new server or if to start doing the VPN. I was thinking of monitoring this server for a bit before switching Nekoweb, which is why I’m a little hesistant to do it right now.

Brother came over, so we talked and went outside to walk around. As we went through the park, we found scooter that you can rent, and my brother decided that it’d be fun to try it out for the first time ever. But for some reason scooter went really slowly, so we quickly abandoned it. As he stopped, app showed that we were apparently in «forbidden zone» and he got a fine for leaving scooter in it. It’s also why scooter was slow. That’s actually dumb as fuck. We didn’t even know we are in it, and when we stopped, we couldn’t go back to move it from there to remove the fine. No wonder everyone hates these apps.

We bought a slushie, and for the first time ever in my life I got what people call "brain freeze", which actually made me scared for a bit, but it went away quickly. For some reason my brother was not affected and never got it.

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When we went back there was police and ambulance for drunk person.

No idea what that was about.

Added maintenance mode to Nekoweb. I think I’ll start the move to new server tomorrow.

Played more Yume 2kki. We went through a pretty difficult place to reach a beautiful scenery.

By going to the left you reach Secret Society. A piano plays… It sounds a bit tragic — people in the building seem to all work on something, and it feels like the world is ending and they’re trying to save it.

I really enjoy places that actually seem to have thought and story in them, and this one really feels like it. It reminded me of OneShot in a way…

Between Secret Society and house place there’s this liminal room, which I really like.

Yume 2kki is full of worlds that just have a bunch random garbage sprayed around and you just have to walk though copypasted images until you’re lucky enough to find something (or more often just look up the map). I really dislike that. I haven’t been in that many worlds so far, but even now it’s easy to see what worlds had actually big effort and thought put into them and what weren’t.

Unfortunately vast majority are the bad kind.