So tired. Constant tiredness. I feel like Zoloft makes me never feel bored, I can just lay in bed and do nothing forever. I’m tired of laying in bed, but at the same time I’m also too tired of doing a…

While I was making breakfast, brother came over. He recently had a wisdom tooth removed, so he spent a week at the hospital…

Only started my day at 4 PM. It was already getting dark by then…

Most of the day was spent in bed, resting and enjoying the heater. Unfortunately agreed to some boring commission, and now have to actually think how to finish it…

Bed is too cozy and I’m too tired most of the time. Infrared heater is also adding +5000 to coziness level. …

Spent the whole day reading PsychonautWiki about random substances. So tired again… I thought that stopping Lyrica stopped the constant tiredness but it seems like it’s back. But anxiety seems to be…

It’s December, the most wonderful time of the year. ❄️ …

There were multiple power outages today…

I open my eyes and reach for my phone. It’s 6 AM, I once again woke up after 5 hours of sleep. The main room of the apartment has lights on, and I can hear the quiet voices…

Every few months or years, I find myself returning to the same place in my dreams. It’s not a specific location in the real world, but more like a strange nexus - a cafe, a hacker’s den, and an entran…

For some reason kept waking up in the night. That hasn’t happened for a while now, maybe because I stopped medication…

Finally, finally had energy today! For the first time in like 2 weeks I felt like wanting to get up and do everything. It looks like it was just Lyrica’s effect after all, thank fucking God. Also I di…

Started watching Clannad…

So tired. Went to visit parents today because of █████████████████. Touched cat after so long…

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Watched Kanon (2006) for the whole day. It’s a cozy, snowy, sad, cute anime. I really liked it. While watching it I constantly felt bittersweet. And when I was done with watching it, as with any other…

First real snowy day!!..

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So insanely tired lately. I think Zoloft or Lyrica is making me much more tired than usual. I hope this effect will stop after the transitional period…

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Woke up from bombing, but fell asleep again after 20 minutes. This time I wasn’t very scared or anxious from it, probably because of the meds I’m taking…

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So much staring at the screen. My website is so cozy when it’s snowing. Was trying to make myself start doing assignments for the whole day and finally at 1 AM managed to start and possibly finished a…

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Woke up without anxiety and feeling pretty well. I assume Lyrica works. I went on my website, which I didn’t do for a while, and noticed that it’s snowing now. It’s code I made a while ago, and it’s n…

Went to hospital today. Visited neurologist and I shared that Stresam stopped working. It was expected though, it’s only for short-term management of anxiety. …

Feeling quite overwhelmed with amount of things I need to do. Got more commissions and I still need to finish my assignments…

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It gets dark so early now. For some reason, my room has been more yellow than usual. Probably because sun is actually visible during sunset instead of going behind the other apartment building…

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