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Wow, weirdly my muscles on legs hurt much more than yesterday. Usually the peak of pain from training in gym comes a day after but for some reason it’s today. Feels like I really overtrained them though, since I can barely walk.

Me and my brother finally got my dad to get medical examination. He’s a typical strong man, and refuses to go to hospital until it’s too late, but I said I’ll pay for a good private hospital and he agreed.

Most of his body was okay, until they got to legs. Apparently they’re in extremely bad shape. Doctors said that he might lose ability to walk if he doesn’t stop smoking and start medical treatment ASAP, so I think he’s going to get hospitalized for a week to get some strong drugs. Also I really hope he’ll be able to quit smoking. Man, this sucks.

Did more fixes to commission. I still haven’t got paid in full for it because he keeps asking me for changes, it’s so annoying. Also fixed req.path in Ultimate Express.

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Really thinking about buying a MacBook. I really want a laptop with good battery life, and unfortunately MacBook seems like the only laptop that is good for that, despite my hate for Apple and MacOS. I think I’m going to wait until M4 MB comes out so maybe price for older models goes lower.

Apparently, largest supermarket in the city has delivery option. Damn, if I knew this earlier I would order so much stuff by now.

Now I can have a selection of much more tasty treats and food than I usually had this entire time. Bought tasty treats for the month.

Got a call from my bank, and I expected some random trash I didn’t want, but it was actually something cool this time. Because I’m in IT, they offered me to become premium client for free, as long as I continue getting money from it. Now I got premium banking service and gonna get platinum card in a few days. Awesome!

Went to gym today and trained legs again. I’m scared to train hands because when I did it, my neuralgia always came back. So I’m probably just gonna continue training only legs.

When I came on treadmill today, my bpm was 120, even without doing anything, while my brother’s was 80. This sucks, I hope it’ll improve over time.

Ate a quaso after gym.

It was nice and rainy outside.

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More rotting today. Got nothing to do today, except doing more fixing to the same commission…

I want to go to New York. Well, I wanted to do it for the most of my conscious life. But I was recently thinking a lot about how much I want to travel.

For a long time, I was just thinking that I would try and move to Japan, but recently I started to admire other countries a lot too, and I feel like to truly decide on my destination, I’m gonna need to visit all of them. Can’t wait for war to end.

Used washing machine for the first time in my life. It was scary, but everything turned out to be fine and nothing bad happened to the clothes or the machine.

Finally cleaned my desk. I should’ve took picture before cleaning. Even when it’s clean, it’s still messy, but I like it that way.

Rotting today. Literally nothing to do, so just layed in bed and did nothing. Played Yume 2kki.

Apparently, Techno Condominium has a secret path that leads to a long, long way to Lavender Waters, one of the most deepest words in Yume 2kki. On the way there we found a couple of very iconic locations I’ve seen before on screenshots.

Iconic and inspiring place. My game has got to have a cool location like this.

Final Destination.

Another +1 to awesome world list of Marijuana Goddess world.

I’m feeling so nice today. Not having anxiety makes me feel actually alive for once after so long. I’m taking Stresam, and unfortunately you’re not supposed to take it for longer than a month, so I fear the day when I’ll have to stop taking it…

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Had to wake up early today to go to the hospital. Got my leg’s arteries scanned, and they are seemingly fine. After that I went to rheumatologist and told about coldness in feet. It seems that I almost definitely don’t have Reynolds Syndrome, which is good. What’s much more likely is that it’s just because my legs are fucked up from being clubfoot and blood circulation is a bit worse there. She told me to get more analyses to check, but honestly I don’t really see the point anymore. Just spending more money on analyses and doctor visits only to be told that "yeah you really don’t have it". So it looks like I’m finally done with my hospital visits.

I can’t stop being happy about anxiety meds. They actually work, and work really well. Unlike quetiapine, which I feel like didn’t do anything at all. Now I can actually do things without being absolutely terrified and don’t feel bad everyday.

My legs still hurt from the gym 2 days ago, which is good. Muscles are developing I guess.

After I got home I fell asleep and slept for 5 more hours.

Decided to finish Declarative responses in Ultimate Express today.

Finally bought an infrared heater. It’s so satisfying to be in front of it. For some reason it feels better than normal radiator heating.

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Played a bit of Yume 2kki.

We found some ocean place where you can explore the islands.

One island is particularly guarded, and after getting to it, we found a dungeon with actually pretty cool minigame with puzzles, enemies and a boss! And all of that is still in Yume 2kki. Insane how many things this game has. After beating the boss you get the reward — Menu Theme.

Went to gym today again, and only trained legs.

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Wow, I think anxiety meds actually work. I keep feeling anxiety inside, but it’s very suppressed. It’s an extremely weird feeling. But it feels super awesome to not feel physical pain!

Went to hospital again today. Taxis as always were super duper quick, literally came in 30 seconds! Doctor was kinda disappointing. He checked my legs and said that I’m gonna need to get scanned and get checked at another doctor… Everything was very quick yet expensive. Kinda annoying that I’ll have to go to hospital once again…

Got response from person I made comm for that there was a bug with monitors where pixel density is different from 1. I was thinking it’s basically impossible for me to fix, since I don’t have such monitors, but then realized that I can just open my laptop and have it as my third monitor. I checked it out on laptop, and indeed, it didn’t work.

Seems that robot.js just doesn’t work properly with high density displays, so I had to spend hours on getting screenshots to work with node-ffi. I was very lucky to find some library that had such function, and I finally could get screenshots done. After I switched the screenshotter, for some reason it still didn’t work properly, and I’ve noticed that for some reason, Electron’s screen returns wrong screen offset coordinates for high density display. So I’ve decided to try using node-ffi again, and once again didn’t have much success. After hours of pain and hell I became too desperate and had to open up the beast — Visual Studio 2022. It was much easier to just write a very simple C++ program to get data about displays, and this data had actually accurate offsets this time! So I just compiled it and called it from Node.

After some more bug fixes I finally made everything work. Packaging it was pain again. Because of dynamic import I had to copy some of node_modules and it took a while to figure out which ones I needed.

During me coding all that, suddenly random people started joining the server, and then asked if I made some crypto coin, which I didn’t. It seemingly got 100k marketcap, which is pretty crazy. My site showed 150 people online, and huge amount joined the Discord server. People explained to me that it was just someone trying to profit from my name. Then some guy started sending everyone tons of crypto in server. It was genuinely crazy, and actually sizable amounts ($250+) to basically all active people in the server. He was apparently very rich, with more than 10M dollars earnt this year. ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

Used a taxi for the first time in my life. Was very anxious about it, but it was fast and convenient… As always I’m more anxious about stuff than needed.

Got to hospital and started the trip through doctors. At first went to dermatologist, and they checked all my dark spots and luckily all were fine and non-cancerous, yay! Finally can be not anxious about them for a while, she said to check in after 1-3 years again.

Then got my kidneys checked and they were fine too, apart from small dust that wasn’t really threatening.

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Then went to neurologist, and it was a nice surprise, actually. I didn’t expect that, but she was kinda like a psychiatrist too, we talked more about my anxiety and psychological problems more than about my nerve stuff lol. She prescribed me real anti-anxiety meds!!! Hopefully they’ll do something this time! Apparently doctor for cold feet is different one (vascular surgeon), so I got an appointment for tomorrow. Kinda sucks that I’ll need to go to hospital again, but whatever.

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After a long and nice chat, we went to buy prescribed meds. Intercostal neuralgia isn’t really treatable unfortunately. I did buy anti-pain meds for it, but I doubt I’ll be taking them, because of scary side effects. After I got home I fell asleep.

Then we played a bit of Yume 2kki, our expedition went to place we’ve been at before, so there wasn’t really interesting today. Took anxiety meds tonight.

Got more commissions from same person, so just spent the day doing them. Boring day.

Someone reported a bug in Nekoweb that made it not redirect /page to /page/. Seemingly an unimportant thing, but it makes it so there’s basically always 2 different pages with 2 behaviors. I kinda panicked and changed it to redirect, but then realized that then it breaks huge amount of Nekoweb sites because they rely on this behavior so I had to revert it back… In the end I just added an option to enable strict routing, so people can switch to it when they are ready. It’s also enabled by default for new users.

Finished Bsky crossposter!

Added a second FTP server in USA. Well, returned it back. Now people can connect to either Europe or USA server. And finally fixed bug with moving folders and files in dashboard. Also added support for uploading folders.

Yume 2kki at the end of the day as always. Went further from that cozy room until the end of the path, and got a Menu Theme. I like when there’s just a linear long path with reward at the end. Having a lot of routes always feels confusing and orderless.

After that just went through today’s expeditions.

Sent the commission. Started coding Bluesky crossposter, and while coding it I realized that you can actually set any date you want, so I imported all of my tweets into Bluesky.

After importing them all, I stwrt coding actual crossposting but then hit a rate limit… Apparently you can only create 100 sessions per day, and I was supposed to save the credentials. So I can’t work on it further until tomorrow, which is very frustrating.

Decided to play Yume 2kki since didn’t have anything to do otherwise. Did a pretty beautiful expedition to Wind Turbine Plateau.

Together.

Alone.

After that we started preparing to get more endings.

Got ending #2 and #3. One of them is falling down the stairs and other one is going back and kicking the stairs off lol.

To get ending #4 you need to get at least 500 wallpapers and I only have 270, so that’s not happening for a while. Went back to cozy room and ended the play.