Spent the whole day reading PsychonautWiki about random substances. So tired again… I thought that stopping Lyrica stopped the constant tiredness but it seems like it’s back. But anxiety seems to be…

It’s December, the most wonderful time of the year. ❄️ …

There were multiple power outages today…

I open my eyes and reach for my phone. It’s 6 AM, I once again woke up after 5 hours of sleep. The main room of the apartment has lights on, and I can hear the quiet voices…

Every few months or years, I find myself returning to the same place in my dreams. It’s not a specific location in the real world, but more like a strange nexus - a cafe, a hacker’s den, and an entran…

For some reason kept waking up in the night. That hasn’t happened for a while now, maybe because I stopped medication…

Finally, finally had energy today! For the first time in like 2 weeks I felt like wanting to get up and do everything. It looks like it was just Lyrica’s effect after all, thank fucking God. Also I di…

Started watching Clannad…

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Watched Kanon (2006) for the whole day. It’s a cozy, snowy, sad, cute anime. I really liked it. While watching it I constantly felt bittersweet. And when I was done with watching it, as with any other…

First real snowy day!!..

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So insanely tired lately. I think Zoloft or Lyrica is making me much more tired than usual. I hope this effect will stop after the transitional period…

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Woke up from bombing, but fell asleep again after 20 minutes. This time I wasn’t very scared or anxious from it, probably because of the meds I’m taking…

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So much staring at the screen. My website is so cozy when it’s snowing. Was trying to make myself start doing assignments for the whole day and finally at 1 AM managed to start and possibly finished a…

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Woke up without anxiety and feeling pretty well. I assume Lyrica works. I went on my website, which I didn’t do for a while, and noticed that it’s snowing now. It’s code I made a while ago, and it’s n…

Went to hospital today. Visited neurologist and I shared that Stresam stopped working. It was expected though, it’s only for short-term management of anxiety. …

Feeling quite overwhelmed with amount of things I need to do. Got more commissions and I still need to finish my assignments…

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It gets dark so early now. For some reason, my room has been more yellow than usual. Probably because sun is actually visible during sunset instead of going behind the other apartment building…

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Wow, weirdly my muscles on legs hurt much more than yesterday. Usually the peak of pain from training in gym comes a day after but for some reason it’s today. Feels like I really overtrained them thou…

Apparently, largest supermarket in the city has delivery option. Damn, if I knew this earlier I would order so much stuff by now. …

Went to gym today and trained legs again. I’m scared to train hands because when I did it, my neuralgia always came back. So I’m probably just gonna continue training only legs. …