I refused to go to gym today. I don’t like it. My brother keeps saying it’s for my health, and he’s right. But every time I go there, I feel terrible afterwards. I dont understand people who say that you feel good after doing physical excercise. I’m so bored there, and afterwards I just feel terrible for «wasting» time there. And I’m always incredibly tired, to the point that I need to recover for the entirety of day afterwards or even for another day. Not sure what to do about that.
I’ve been recently thinking that when I put effort into physical health, I take away points from mental one, and by that I mean that I just don’t have the brainpower to think of anything artistically.
Wasted more time playing Hypixel. Felt like shit for not creating again. I’m constantly thinking about how I should start doing ANYTHING. But to do anything, I need to know how to compose. I need to know how to draw.
And it’s so fucking hard. And it’ll take me fucking years to learn. I don’t know if I can really do this at all.
I’ll start with learning piano, so I finally bought a synth today.