Another █████████████ class done. After that did exam for another class afte and got 31/40. Got ready, and then we went to parents. It’s █████████████████. After that we picked up other guests and got to a restaurant to celebrate.

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There was my godfather’s wife. My godfather is currently at war. I told her that if her husband needs anything bought, they can tell me and I’ll gladly help.

My brother has 2 godfathers. They are close friends of our family, so they were always included in all celebrations. One of them was diagnosed with cancer, and is going through chemotherapy, so he was absent. The other had stroke, and half of his body wasn’t working properly. He basically can’t talk and struggles to walk, but he was still with us.

Once again, this reinforces my fear of aging. God, I really need someone to create anti-aging medication already and I need to be rich as fuck to be able to afford it.

I like that the restaurant had a fireplace. I ate a lot of cheese and drank a lot of wine. Got quite drunk, we had our fun, parents were a bit annoying as they always are when drunk.

Brother brought them home and then we went to my old roommate and he borrowed us PlayStation 4. We never played or had any console ever in our lives. Played It Takes Two together, which was fairly fun, and went to sleep.

The year was 1975. My dad, young and impulsive, left school early to attend a tractor college. In the USSR, it was common for students to be sent to different republics for hands-on work. At just 14 years old, he and a group of boys no older than 16 were sent to Kazakhstan to help with farm and factory tasks.

He found himself working on a farm near a tiny village in the middle of the vast steppe, where no more than 100 people lived.

The full moon hung brightly in the sky, casting pale light over the village. My dad was resting in a dimly lit building when two large, middle-aged men suddenly barged in. One of them spoke in a cold, menacing tone: "Put on your clothes. We’re going to kill you."

The man blocked the only exit. Adrenaline surged through his veins. "Is this how it ends for me?" he thought.

Complying, he moved toward the hanger, pretending to search for his clothes. Then, in a split second, he made his move — charging full force at the man guarding the door. Caught off guard, the man stumbled and fell. My dad didn’t stop to look back; he sprinted into the darkness.

The farm was a maze of stables and buildings. Heart pounding, he ran around a stable, the men’s shouts fading momentarily. Spotting a small window, he knew it was his only chance. Despite its narrow frame, he squeezed through and tumbled inside.

He held his breath, listening as the men ran past, unaware of his hiding place. They searched for over an hour, their voices growing fainter until silence returned.

When he was sure it was safe, he crawled out of the barn and slipped into the open fields. Climbing onto a hay bale, he looked up at the moon. Its cold light bathed the steppe, but he no longer cared. He was alive.

Dad called me telling that mom will fry ribs and that I should come home (what an alluring proposal). I haven’t ate anything yet, so I decided to come. I quickly put lens in (only in 5 minutes), and got in the car.

My room has been renovated with new wooden walls. It kinda looks like an old wooden hut, which is cozy. My brother’s room was under renovation after mine, so my room was filled with random stuff from his room.

I ate and talked with family. Brother was absent, since he was in the ██████████████████████████████.

It snowed a little. Seems like every time I go to parents it snows… maybe I should visit them more often.

My eyes felt really dry and sleepy for the entire day for some reason.

Went to supermarket, bought some groceries with dad and came home. Then fell asleep. Apparently it snowed quite a lot while I was asleep, and it was already over :(

Brother and parents came with my new computer. I was excited to finally see it, but they also gave me ████████████████████████████████████████████. Started feeling extremely anxious, so I couldn’t feel happy about new computer at all. ███████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████. Family consoled me, and after a bit we started assembling it all.

Took us a while to figure out all wiring, but eventually we got this:

After around a minute, computer booted. Me and my brother tried connect it to WiFi, but suddenly it got a bluescreen.

We restarted it, tried again, and got another one. And then another one. Weirdly every bluescreen had a different error.

Another weird thing was that monitors didn’t show anything at all until Windows booted. We were kinda stuck, and contacted the support telling them what’s going on. We’ve decided to connect old monitors, and suddenly all boot imagery and Bios could actually be seen. I’ve decided to try resetting Bios settings to default. Restarted the computer. All bluescreens stopped. Yay. And for some reason new monitors also started working before Windows boot too.

For some reason, WiFi speed was EXTREMELY slow, basically unusable, so we’ve decided to go to shop to get Ethernet cable. We went to █████████████ and bought the cable. I also needed some cleaning supplies, so we walked to █████████████ and… ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

Came back home with all the stuff, and brother left me. Started to look into moving the files from laptop to PC. God, it was SO annoying. First, I tried to use Ethernet cable to send everything over. It didn’t work. Computer just didn’t see the laptop at all. Then I tried USB. It also didn’t work. Then I tried setting up FTP server. It kept throwing me random errors. Extremely frustrated, I’ve decided to just use the slowest and dumbest method and just used my old HDD and USB to SATA connector, and sent files there and then from it to the PC. Then all that was left was just installing the programs and setting everything up.

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15 minutes and my lens were in. Better and better. Just can’t get over the fact that ███████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ Felt sad for the whole day because of this.

Went to gym today. Just couldn’t stop being amazed at 4K world. Looked at the road that goes out of city, and instead of blurry line it’s now a bunch of bright dots.

After gym got to buy these amazing chips:

Few days ago I tried blue ones, and they were one of the best chips in my life. So I had to buy all other flavors. Also on the way home bought noodles from vending machine (which was really cool and unusual).

Ate it for the dinner. It was good!

Putting lens in was much easier today! Instead of 2 hours only took 20 minutes. Slowly learning…

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Then we went to the barbershop. Apparently I fucked up with signing up, so I had to sign up again 2 hours later… So we went to a restaurant and ate. This is my first daytime with good vision. Everything is so pretty. After restaurant we just walked around and I enjoyed the view. There was a lot of birds on the trees. It was beautiful.

Then I came back to barbershop. During the haircut, the barber accidentally cut my mole. It kinda bled a lot, and in the end he said that the haircut will be free. I guess that’s nice, even though it does quite hurt. The haircut itself… fine I guess. Not a huge fan of how I look after fresh cut, it’ll definitely start looking better after a month.

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Dad picked me up and I went to the optics. They checked my eyes again and got me the contact lenses.

Ooough, I struggled a lot to put them on. Didn’t really manage to do it without doctor’s help, while taking them off was easy. In the end she helped me to put them on again and brother picked me up and we went home.

The world in 4K is so beautiful. My eyes weren’t really used to lens, so I still felt a bit uncomfortable and kept crying. But it mostly subsided in the end.

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Went outside and ate Carbonara.

Then went to the anime shop and bought the best backpack in the world.

And called Taxi and went to vision clinic to check if I can undergo eye laser surgery. Went through a ton of tests, and finally saw the balloon thing for the first time in my life (even though I didn’t understand what exactly it was for).

After all the tests, doctor told me that I’m still pretty young and shouldn’t do it yet. She told me to start wearing contact lenses or glasses and comeback in 6 months and check if my eyesight is still at the same level.

Kinda disappointed. My eyesight seemingly haven’t really changed for the past like 6 years. But at the same time, I’m still kinda scared to do it so I guess if they made me not do it then I won’t push through it.

Went to the closest optics and asked for contact lenses. They told me to get checked by their own doctor (despite me already having huge detailed analysis of my eyes), and told me to come tomorrow. Ok. Went home.

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I’ve decided to do laser eye surgery. I want to have good sight when I start traveling and enjoying the world. Scheduled an appointment in a clinic.

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Then we went to gym. After gym we ate at restaurant and I went home.

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Is this what they call life?

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Parents called me telling they’ll come and visit me and see the apartment for themselves. I got up and cleaned it a little, and then they came over. As expected, they liked it just like I did. We then went to shop for more stuff that I need.

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Went to bazaar and bought a rug to be under my chair, so that it doesn’t move as easily. Then went to █████████████ and bought a ton of stuff, some for me and some for them. It started snowing.

I bought stuff for kitchen, a vacuum robot, a soft chair thingy, a dryer, and a bunch of more lil things. After that went to █████████████ and bought bedsheets and food.

Then we went to parents home.

This is the most perfect time of the day. I love when it’s snowing and sky is blue like this. It’s only happening briefly when sun is already about to set.

We sorted what we bought, and unpacked things I bought for parents while leaving what I bought for myself in the car. I walked for a bit on the street and suddenly my cat saw me and came to me. We then walked a bit more with him on my hands.

After eating, my brother brought me back home. We set up the roomba and kept getting shocked that alien technology like this even exists. It first scanned the entire apartment and then I made it clean it, which it did in about a hour.

Got my soft chair thingamabob in front of the panorama window. It’s really the perfect place to sit with a laptop and enjoy the view.

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Brother left me and I hopped on my computer. The chair I bought 2 days ago is kinda bad after all. It’s not very comfortable to sit straight and it makes my hands not being able to be in proper position for typing. Uguu…

Just watched YouTube and coded bot. Then showered, felt lonely and sad, and went to sleep.

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Unpackaged my bags of clothes and other stuff. Went to supermarket with brother and then ate Carbonara.

Got home and rested. Unpacked my computer bags.

Not as cozy as my previous setup, that’s for sure. The desk is also too high. It’s not comfortable for me to place hands on it.

Made peak food, coded the bot a bit, rested and went to bed.

Woke up feeling rested yet really sleepy. Checked the clock - it was 9 AM, meaning I slept for 8 hours. For the first time in a long time.

It’s a very nice feeling knowing you don’t have to go anywhere and you’re in apartment all for yourself. Nobody to bother you. I took my time and then went outside to get breakfast. Now restaurants are super close to me, so I won’t have to order food much.

Spent the time in bakery writing diary page for yesterday. Croissants were really good.

Went back home and got a message from ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

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Brother came to me and I explained to him the situation. We were both not sure what to do. Suddenly it started to snow a lot.

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The panorama windows are sooo beautfiul in this apartment. I would just lay on floor and look at the snowfall for a while if we didn’t have to go do more shopping and moving.

We went to finally buy a chair. Purchase succeeded this time and we then went to shop for food and other necessities. After that we came back to apartment and brought the chair and stuff in. Roommate finally came over too and we just talked and ate for a while.

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We then prepared my bed. Fluffy soft sheetssss.

I showered for the first time in the apartment and went to bed.

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Walked to the apartment and met brother and realtor. Had to wait for a while for person with keys to show up, and then we were in the apartment.

We started to look at every lil broken thing in it, to document everything so that it doesn’t get blamed on me. The owner is sadly too perfectionist. Even the tiniest scratch makes her a bit mad, so I fear that living with landlord like that might suck.

Then, I got the contract. Read everything, it was fine. Signed it. Paid for everything. Got keys. It’s mine now!

Had to hurry to the exchanger before it closed. When we got there, we realized that the door was closed and had a notice on door saying that exchanger is closed. We got confused for a bit, and thought that I got scammed or that we came too late.

But then we noticed that there’s a button nearby the door. We pressed it, and a girl answered asking us what we came here for. We got stunned, but told that we are here to exchange money. She asked who we came here. More confusion. I checked the message I got from the site. It told to tell that we came to Angelina. We told her that we came to Angelina, and the door opened. Crazy level of conspiration. The interior looked like a common bank.

She then asked who initiated the exchange. The thing is, I used some extremely dumb username on the site like «aueaaeauo» and I had to say that IRL, and while I was doing it we all started to laugh. Then she put the money in counting machine, and I finally received my cash. We recounted it and went out.

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We then went to buy a chair, but couldn’t do it because I didn’t have UAH cash and they didn’t have a banking terminal, and they told us to come tomorrow when they get a terminal.

We were hungry, so we made a plan to order food to my new place and invite my roommate there to eat and show him the new apartment. We called him and ordered Sushi. After a little while, he came, but apparently he was busy with something so we had to put Sushi in the fridge and come with him to help him with car and also carry my stuff.

We came to my old apartment, my brother helped him with car while I started taking my stuff to bags. I don’t have that much stuff. All my belongings could be fit in 5 bags. We took around 3/4 of everything and brought it to the new apartment, and decided to get the rest tomorrow. Finally got to eat food. Roommate didn’t join us because he wasn’t in the mood.

After a bit of unpacking and talking, brother went home. Just like my first move, felt really melancholic. Maybe a bit lonely. But eventually I fell asleep.

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After we ordered food, I checked my phone and ███████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

Probably was the fanciest restaurant I’ve been yet. Got Risotto and Duck with pear. Everything was really good.

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Didn’t take much time between me getting up and me being driven to the apartment.

Took a short drive, and arrived to the building, where we met the realtor. After a short talk and ride on the elevator, we were in.

The apartment looked great! I was definitely not disappointed in it. Pretty much the same as it was on the photos. And what’s important, it actually has a computer table, although it’s on the balcony. But overall I really liked it.

With not much hesistation, I said that I want to rent it. The realtor videocalled the owner and gave her phone to me. The owner was suprisingly an older lady. For some reason, because apartment looked modern, I expected the owner to be young too, but I guess not.

She told me that the previous tenant was awful, kept partying and inviting people and drinking, and she had to order cleaning service and fix a bunch of things. She was suspicious of me, and hoped that I wasn’t like this too. She said that she wants that the apartment would get checked every month, which kinda sucks. I understand her, but I for sure don’t like the prospect of being monitored this often. But I guess it is what it is.

So it looks like I’ll be moving in in 2 days! Moving all my stuff will for sure be annoying, but whatevs. After this, we went to the restaurant.

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Got home when it was already dark. It was really cold outside.

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Felt very sad and anxious for the first part of the day. Brother left job early, and came over and told me that we should go to gym today. I didn’t sleep enough, so I was really sleepy and told him that I’m gonna sleep more and we should go at our usual time.

Then he went out to do whatever he needed to do, while I did my usual morning routine (and didn’t sleep since), and then got up and started my day.

Continued being sad for the most part. At 6 PM brother called me telling me to get ready, so after 5 minutes I was in the car going to the gym. ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

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Moon was looking sharp today, with Venus behind. It was snowing a little bit.

We went to the pool today. After swimming for a bit, we finally decided to go to the "hot area", which includes hot tubs kinda stuff.

We went inside the Jacuzzi. It was my first time ever, and it was for sure great to chill after all the anxiety.

After that we went into Finnish Sauna and then went for some other things I forgot name of. It was really really nice, especially given that I was feeling anxious before.

When we came back from the gym, we found a surprise on our car 🐈 🐾

We didn’t even bother cleaning it. Went to a restaurant after.

Fancy steak presentation. My phone got to 0% battery at this point. Talked more about ██████████████████████, and then I went home. Got onto my computer and ███████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

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