Diary · #out · Page 3

February 20, 2025: Shimako

Today is ████████████████████████ so I went to parents to celebrate. The sun was shining in gold as we were going home.

After arriving, me and dad walked to a place with a good view, but alas, sun was already gone. It was still beautiful.

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I got to squish cat as always.

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We ate tasty things and then I was brought back home. Bought the tasty treats for the next month.

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And then we played Yume 2kki. We had a pretty easy expedition today. After we got to our destination (RGB Passage B), we sat and chatted with a different group that was there too. FakeToy, proposed to bring us to some pretty places and we agreed.

Our first journey went to Blood Rose Canal. On the way there we got to an English town, which we got a Menu Theme from.

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And this was the end of the path… The world looks red…

After this he proposed to show us a secret event. We went through the usual path to Rainy Apartments but with some big derivations. On the way there, you have to kill 5 red creatures across many worlds.

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After killing all of them, we went for the usual train ride.

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Instead of waking up in the Oblique Hell, you end up at the rooftop of the hospital. Music from train continues playing.

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After going to sleep, you end up at Pure White Lands, with Shimako blowing bubbles on the left side of the cliff’s edge.

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Peace, at last…

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I struggled to sleep today. Stayed up so late that I finally saw the Sun, for the first time from this apartment.

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February 19, 2025

Woke up and immediately went to gym. On the way there bought new lenses, since old ones expired. Now putting in lenses is completely effortless.

Before going in the gym, we went to a road that unlocked after it snowed. It wasn’t visible before.

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The road led to an abandoned cargo car. We’ve decided to not go further and came back.

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We went to pool this time. After nice swimming, we went home, but on the way home went to a restaurant.

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It was a pretty fancy restaurant. We ordered crab pasta, and it was good. I never had crab before (although had other seafood that tastes very similar).

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After we got home we played some more multiplayer games. Then brother went home and I finally got on PC at 11 PM for the first time.

Sometimes I like to just go through random highways with complete emptiness around for hours. This time it was in Argentina, and I also ended up clicking on random mountains.

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This looks like wallpaper material, even though it’s just an image from Google Maps.

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Made what some people call "peak".

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February 13, 2025

Woke up at 4 PM, ate and went to gym.

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Got home, and tried to photograph moon from the binoculars. It’s difficult. Then just listened to ambience and layed on the floor.

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Drank the rest of the wine.

February 12, 2025

After 3 hours of sleep, got woken up by deliveryperson. My binoculars arrived. I got the box and went back to sleep. Then another call, and person from cleaning service came. Landlord is paying someone to clean apartment once a month and also to check that the apartment’s in good condition. She cleaned it, and went away.

Then another call… this time from brother. He told me that we should go to gym, and I agreed. He came over and I told him to come in to show him the binoculars. They’re cool, and have 20X zoom. I love zooming. We waited 30 minutes for moon to appear from horizon.

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Unfortunately, it’s almost impossible to take a photo from binoculars, so this is the only one I could take, just from my phone’s camera. But in binoculars moon looks so cool.

In the end, we didn’t go to gym. Talked a lot, and then went to parents, as they wanted me to see the room renovations that were done. My and brother’s rooms now have wooden walls, and look kinda like these wooden houses, which is cozy.

I talked a lot with parents. █████████████████████████████████ Then brother drove me back home. On the way home, we’ve decided to go to nearby forest, because it’s on hill and it has a very beautiful view. When we got to the spot… there was a car there, and some person being very suspicious. It was scary as fuck, since it was already very late and it was very weird for someone to be in such specific spot.

We instantly turned back and went away.

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Got back home and fell asleep. Woke up at 2 AM. Stared at screen, ate some more cheese with wine.

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Got cozy in the best spot in the apartment and watched the sky with binoculars. You can see so many more stars with them.

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February 6, 2025

Another █████████████ class done. After that did exam for another class afte and got 31/40. Got ready, and then we went to parents. It’s █████████████████. After that we picked up other guests and got to a restaurant to celebrate.

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There was my godfather’s wife. My godfather is currently at war. I told her that if her husband needs anything bought, they can tell me and I’ll gladly help.

My brother has 2 godfathers. They are close friends of our family, so they were always included in all celebrations. One of them was diagnosed with cancer, and is going through chemotherapy, so he was absent. The other had stroke, and half of his body wasn’t working properly. He basically can’t talk and struggles to walk, but he was still with us.

Once again, this reinforces my fear of aging. God, I really need someone to create anti-aging medication already and I need to be rich as fuck to be able to afford it.

I like that the restaurant had a fireplace. I ate a lot of cheese and drank a lot of wine. Got quite drunk, we had our fun, parents were a bit annoying as they always are when drunk.

Brother brought them home and then we went to my old roommate and he borrowed us PlayStation 4. We never played or had any console ever in our lives. Played It Takes Two together, which was fairly fun, and went to sleep.

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February 2, 2025: Alive

The year was 1975. My dad, young and impulsive, left school early to attend a tractor college. In the USSR, it was common for students to be sent to different republics for hands-on work. At just 14 years old, he and a group of boys no older than 16 were sent to Kazakhstan to help with farm and factory tasks.

He found himself working on a farm near a tiny village in the middle of the vast steppe, where no more than 100 people lived.

The full moon hung brightly in the sky, casting pale light over the village. My dad was resting in a dimly lit building when two large, middle-aged men suddenly barged in. One of them spoke in a cold, menacing tone: "Put on your clothes. We’re going to kill you."

The man blocked the only exit. Adrenaline surged through his veins. "Is this how it ends for me?" he thought.

Complying, he moved toward the hanger, pretending to search for his clothes. Then, in a split second, he made his move — charging full force at the man guarding the door. Caught off guard, the man stumbled and fell. My dad didn’t stop to look back; he sprinted into the darkness.

The farm was a maze of stables and buildings. Heart pounding, he ran around a stable, the men’s shouts fading momentarily. Spotting a small window, he knew it was his only chance. Despite its narrow frame, he squeezed through and tumbled inside.

He held his breath, listening as the men ran past, unaware of his hiding place. They searched for over an hour, their voices growing fainter until silence returned.

When he was sure it was safe, he crawled out of the barn and slipped into the open fields. Climbing onto a hay bale, he looked up at the moon. Its cold light bathed the steppe, but he no longer cared. He was alive.


Dad called me telling that mom will fry ribs and that I should come home (what an alluring proposal). I haven’t ate anything yet, so I decided to come. I quickly put lens in (only in 5 minutes), and got in the car.

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My room has been renovated with new wooden walls. It kinda looks like an old wooden hut, which is cozy. My brother’s room was under renovation after mine, so my room was filled with random stuff from his room.

I ate and talked with family. Brother was absent, since he was in the ██████████████████████████████.

It snowed a little. Seems like every time I go to parents it snows… maybe I should visit them more often.

My eyes felt really dry and sleepy for the entire day for some reason.

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Went to supermarket, bought some groceries with dad and came home. Then fell asleep. Apparently it snowed quite a lot while I was asleep, and it was already over :(

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January 28, 2025

Brother and parents came with my new computer. I was excited to finally see it, but they also gave me ████████████████████████████████████████████. Started feeling extremely anxious, so I couldn’t feel happy about new computer at all. ███████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████. Family consoled me, and after a bit we started assembling it all.

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Took us a while to figure out all wiring, but eventually we got this:

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After around a minute, computer booted. Me and my brother tried connect it to WiFi, but suddenly it got a bluescreen.

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We restarted it, tried again, and got another one. And then another one. Weirdly every bluescreen had a different error.

Another weird thing was that monitors didn’t show anything at all until Windows booted. We were kinda stuck, and contacted the support telling them what’s going on. We’ve decided to connect old monitors, and suddenly all boot imagery and Bios could actually be seen. I’ve decided to try resetting Bios settings to default. Restarted the computer. All bluescreens stopped. Yay. And for some reason new monitors also started working before Windows boot too.

For some reason, WiFi speed was EXTREMELY slow, basically unusable, so we’ve decided to go to shop to get Ethernet cable. We went to █████████████ and bought the cable. I also needed some cleaning supplies, so we walked to █████████████ and… ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

Came back home with all the stuff, and brother left me. Started to look into moving the files from laptop to PC. God, it was SO annoying. First, I tried to use Ethernet cable to send everything over. It didn’t work. Computer just didn’t see the laptop at all. Then I tried USB. It also didn’t work. Then I tried setting up FTP server. It kept throwing me random errors. Extremely frustrated, I’ve decided to just use the slowest and dumbest method and just used my old HDD and USB to SATA connector, and sent files there and then from it to the PC. Then all that was left was just installing the programs and setting everything up.

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January 21, 2025

15 minutes and my lens were in. Better and better. Just can’t get over the fact that ███████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ Felt sad for the whole day because of this.

Went to gym today. Just couldn’t stop being amazed at 4K world. Looked at the road that goes out of city, and instead of blurry line it’s now a bunch of bright dots.

After gym got to buy these amazing chips:

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Few days ago I tried blue ones, and they were one of the best chips in my life. So I had to buy all other flavors. Also on the way home bought noodles from vending machine (which was really cool and unusual).

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Ate it for the dinner. It was good!

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January 19, 2025

Putting lens in was much easier today! Instead of 2 hours only took 20 minutes. Slowly learning…

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Then we went to the barbershop. Apparently I fucked up with signing up, so I had to sign up again 2 hours later… So we went to a restaurant and ate. This is my first daytime with good vision. Everything is so pretty. After restaurant we just walked around and I enjoyed the view. There was a lot of birds on the trees. It was beautiful.

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Then I came back to barbershop. During the haircut, the barber accidentally cut my mole. It kinda bled a lot, and in the end he said that the haircut will be free. I guess that’s nice, even though it does quite hurt. The haircut itself… fine I guess. Not a huge fan of how I look after fresh cut, it’ll definitely start looking better after a month.

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January 16, 2025

Dad picked me up and I went to the optics. They checked my eyes again and got me the contact lenses.

Ooough, I struggled a lot to put them on. Didn’t really manage to do it without doctor’s help, while taking them off was easy. In the end she helped me to put them on again and brother picked me up and we went home.

The world in 4K is so beautiful. My eyes weren’t really used to lens, so I still felt a bit uncomfortable and kept crying. But it mostly subsided in the end.

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January 15, 2025

Went outside and ate Carbonara.

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Then went to the anime shop and bought the best backpack in the world.

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And called Taxi and went to vision clinic to check if I can undergo eye laser surgery. Went through a ton of tests, and finally saw the balloon thing for the first time in my life (even though I didn’t understand what exactly it was for).

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After all the tests, doctor told me that I’m still pretty young and shouldn’t do it yet. She told me to start wearing contact lenses or glasses and comeback in 6 months and check if my eyesight is still at the same level.

Kinda disappointed. My eyesight seemingly haven’t really changed for the past like 6 years. But at the same time, I’m still kinda scared to do it so I guess if they made me not do it then I won’t push through it.

Went to the closest optics and asked for contact lenses. They told me to get checked by their own doctor (despite me already having huge detailed analysis of my eyes), and told me to come tomorrow. Ok. Went home.

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January 14, 2025

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I’ve decided to do laser eye surgery. I want to have good sight when I start traveling and enjoying the world. Scheduled an appointment in a clinic.

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Then we went to gym. After gym we ate at restaurant and I went home.

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Coded some fixes and then just chilled and watched Jet Lag The Game. █████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

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Is this what they call life?

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January 12, 2025

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Parents called me telling they’ll come and visit me and see the apartment for themselves. I got up and cleaned it a little, and then they came over. As expected, they liked it just like I did. We then went to shop for more stuff that I need.

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Went to bazaar and bought a rug to be under my chair, so that it doesn’t move as easily. Then went to █████████████ and bought a ton of stuff, some for me and some for them. It started snowing.

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I bought stuff for kitchen, a vacuum robot, a soft chair thingy, a dryer, and a bunch of more lil things. After that went to █████████████ and bought bedsheets and food.

Then we went to parents home.

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This is the most perfect time of the day. I love when it’s snowing and sky is blue like this. It’s only happening briefly when sun is already about to set.

We sorted what we bought, and unpacked things I bought for parents while leaving what I bought for myself in the car. I walked for a bit on the street and suddenly my cat saw me and came to me. We then walked a bit more with him on my hands.

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After eating, my brother brought me back home. We set up the roomba and kept getting shocked that alien technology like this even exists. It first scanned the entire apartment and then I made it clean it, which it did in about a hour.

Got my soft chair thingamabob in front of the panorama window. It’s really the perfect place to sit with a laptop and enjoy the view.

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Brother left me and I hopped on my computer. The chair I bought 2 days ago is kinda bad after all. It’s not very comfortable to sit straight and it makes my hands not being able to be in proper position for typing. Uguu…

Just watched YouTube and coded bot. Then showered, felt lonely and sad, and went to sleep.

January 11, 2025

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Unpackaged my bags of clothes and other stuff. Went to supermarket with brother and then ate Carbonara.

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Got home and rested. Unpacked my computer bags.

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Not as cozy as my previous setup, that’s for sure. The desk is also too high. It’s not comfortable for me to place hands on it.

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Made peak food, coded the bot a bit, rested and went to bed.

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January 10, 2025

Woke up feeling rested yet really sleepy. Checked the clock - it was 9 AM, meaning I slept for 8 hours. For the first time in a long time.

It’s a very nice feeling knowing you don’t have to go anywhere and you’re in apartment all for yourself. Nobody to bother you. I took my time and then went outside to get breakfast. Now restaurants are super close to me, so I won’t have to order food much.

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Spent the time in bakery writing diary page for yesterday. Croissants were really good.

Went back home and got a message from ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

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Brother came to me and I explained to him the situation. We were both not sure what to do. Suddenly it started to snow a lot.

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The panorama windows are sooo beautfiul in this apartment. I would just lay on floor and look at the snowfall for a while if we didn’t have to go do more shopping and moving.

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We went to finally buy a chair. Purchase succeeded this time and we then went to shop for food and other necessities. After that we came back to apartment and brought the chair and stuff in. Roommate finally came over too and we just talked and ate for a while.

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We then prepared my bed. Fluffy soft sheetssss.

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I showered for the first time in the apartment and went to bed.

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