While I was making breakfast, brother came over. He recently had a wisdom tooth removed, so he spent a week at the hospital.

Dad called, and he invited us to a restaurant, since it’s an important day for him. I started to prepare while brother went to pick him up. I went outside and it was already dark.

Even though it’s cold, I like to stand in darkness in warm clothes.

We got to the restaurant and got our food.

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After the restaurant I went home and fell asleep. Woke up with headache (so common when napping). Fixed some atabook stuff and went back to bed.

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Then I went home and layed in bed for a long time. Insanely hard to do anything. Managed to finally ███████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████.

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Woke up from intercostal neuralgia pain, and had to move around in bed a lot to make it stop. I don’t remember if I fell asleep after or couldn’t sleep anymore, but I only slept 6 hours. Layed in bed and did my usual morning scrolling and Anki, and felt too tired to get up. Got my earphones and played windy forest sounds, and that felt really nice. I imagined myself walking near deserted road with fields around, during windy cloudy weather until I fell asleep for 2 more hours.

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Went for a late gym with brother and afterwards went to a ribs restaurant. It was good.

Woke up without anxiety and feeling pretty well. I assume Lyrica works. I went on my website, which I didn’t do for a while, and noticed that it’s snowing now. It’s code I made a while ago, and it’s nice to see it in action. I got up and… it was also snowing outside O_o, kinda a crazy coincidence. I love snow!!! Finally it’s time for winter. I cooked breakfast and then took Zoloft. Well here it goes… my first time with SSRIs, I hope it’ll all be good. By the time this page unlocks for you to read, I’ll already be a month on it.

Went to gym and ran 2.76km on treadmill. Running with earphones feels easier because it’s less boring. After gym went to grill restaurant with brother.

It was nice. Went home and coded ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ Day ended on a sad note.

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Went to gym today. Was angry, anxious and sad all day. After the gym we went to a restaurant, which was the best part of the day.

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Went to gym with brother today. After the gym we went to a nearby seafood restaurant and bought a bunch of… seafood.

My brother didn’t like some seafood (mussels) but I liked everything. It was actually the first time when I got to eat non-canned mussels, and they were great.

After that we went home and I continued █████████████████████████████████████

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Went to gym today and trained legs again. I’m scared to train hands because when I did it, my neuralgia always came back. So I’m probably just gonna continue training only legs.

When I came on treadmill today, my bpm was 120, even without doing anything, while my brother’s was 80. This sucks, I hope it’ll improve over time.

Ate a quaso after gym.

It was nice and rainy outside.

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Finally bought an infrared heater. It’s so satisfying to be in front of it. For some reason it feels better than normal radiator heating.

Pretty chill day. Did some more commission fixes. ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ Bought the most pizza pizza of my life, just like in all movies and games.

Played a bit of Yume 2kki.

We found some ocean place where you can explore the islands.

One island is particularly guarded, and after getting to it, we found a dungeon with actually pretty cool minigame with puzzles, enemies and a boss! And all of that is still in Yume 2kki. Insane how many things this game has. After beating the boss you get the reward — Menu Theme.

Going to hospital soon and will get my guts scanned so I can’t eat today until I get that done. I’ve wanted to get checked at hospital for so long, and it’s finally happening.

Let’s see what I have to complain about:

• Dark spots at my back
• Intercostal neuralgia
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• Kyphosis
• Clubfoot
• Feet are constantly cold from not enough blood circulation
• Anxiety
• Increased heartbeat
• Check vitamins

Well, I got my stomach checked and got blood analysis. Stomach was fine, and I will know about blood analysis result in 2-3 days. This is gonna be the most detailed analysis of my blood in my entire life. But I wanted to complain to them about other things but she didnt really let me. I hope I’ll be able to the next time…

Since I didn’t eat anything before going there, I was super hungry, and we went to some place and got biggest burgers of our lives. Got so full I felt like I’m gonna die. This is kinda why I don’t really like burgers, they’re messy, they’re fast to eat, and you don’t feel satisfied from eating them. I much more like other food that is slower to eat.

At least the atmosphere of that place was nice, brick walls and Frank Sinatra playing.

There has been so many times when I was in a restaurant and thought to myself "this place would be so much better if there was jazz playing". For some reason almost all restaurants play some modern, unmatching to their atmosphere music, and it’s very annoying.

Tried idea with declarative routes a bit more but I realized that it’d only work with ETag disabled in a lot of cases, and it wouldn’t work with if methods are patched, which you can’t really check, so unfortunately it looks like this feature can’t be done. 😔

Brother came over and we started going to the gym, but first went to buy shoes. Saw a cool liminal room:

Today we only went to pool, as we had a free training from a trainer. This was more intense than I expected, and after a hour of training we were quite tired, and decided to go somewhere to eat. There was some place near gym that we were a bit interested in, but we kept being undecideful whether we wanted to go there or not, until we finally decided that we want, but when we went inside it was apparently full. Weirldy that place was serving kinda specific food, and at the same time it was big, so we were surprised that it was actually full.

Went to some other random place instead and got steaks and other stuff:

My brother is always unlucky with what he orders, for some reason his orders are almost always less tasty than mine. We got 2 different steak types and my steak was significantly better.

Didn’t do anything in the first half of the day. Went to gym today, and got to took a better look at the fields:

I really like it when dense city suddenly turns into fields without any suburbs.

We got too tired after gym to go to the pool…

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We finally went to gym, for real this time!

Before going inside, I looked around the parking lot and realized that gym is at the edge of the city. Dense city simply ends and suddenly it’s just endless fields… Which I find so dear and which keep calling me to come to them.

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But I had to resist and we had to finally get inside. We got a free training with personal trainer for the first visit, so he showed us around and told us about some gym things and showed us how to use them. In general, I wanted to go to gym simply because I’m very sedantary and not super fit. I’m not really interested in big muscles and stuff, I just want to start moving more and burn some belly fat.

After doing some muscle training with trainer, we went on a treadmill. When you hold onto it’s iron things, it measures your heartbeat and it was already 130bpm for me, while 90bpm for my brother, which made me quite worried. During most intense running it went up to 170bpm, even though I wasn’t even running 🫣

I googled what’s a good heart rate during running and it said that 170 bpm is already upper limit and that’s usually during running. I think this just indicates how terribly sedantary I am if not even running made my heart rate so high, which is actually scary. Hopefully it’ll improve over time.

After we were done with gym I got another look at the fields and the road going out from city started glowing beautifully.

Brother started driving me home but proposed to maybe go somewhere to eat, but he needed to pick up his girlfriend. He persuaded me to have a dinner with them. It was a tiny bit awkward, since it’s the largest amount of time I ever spent with her around. But the food was nice. We ordered a pizza for everyone (and it was one of the best, or maybe the best pizza I ever had), I got tom yang, they got carbonara and bolognese.

After that I got driven home, and coded a ton of UltimateWS. It’s actually like 65% done now.

Making Nekoweb use uExpress revealed a bunch of bugs, so I spent the morning fixing the reported stuff while I was asleep.

Today we went to buy sport clothes with brother. Bought 2 t-shirts, shorts and shoes.

In 1 of the shops there was this escalator, and it’s the steepest and fastest escalator I’ve ever been on in my life. I genuinely almost fell while using it, it’s actually dangerous!

After buying clothes we went to sushi place.

Had a nice talk and then went home. When I came home I’ve noticed that energy drinks were back, looks like roommate actually bought them back, so that’s nice.

Continued coding uExpress at home. Fixed more bugs, tried async etag generation (fail), finalized some stuff. Looks like it’s truly done now, I don’t know what else there could be to add. Apart from WebSocket upgrade support, but that’ll need a separate library. Maybe I’ll start writing it tomorrow.

During night read some mangas (rare!) and added some more security stuff to Nekoweb.

Started coding commission today, and did about half of the work. Finally aligned my monitors! They always were unaligned, left one being much lower. Maybe this will help with neck pain. After coding got tired and my stomach started to hurt, so I went to bed and napped for a hour. My brother called me saying he’ll come and we’ll check out gyms in the city.

We went to the cheaper gym first, which was fine, but kinda small and crowded. After that we went to much, much larger and premium gym and it was super cool, and also had a pool too. After that we went to a cafe nearby to talk and decide where to go.

We’ve decided to go to the more expensive gym because of the discount, but when we came to ask about it, she said the price was already with discount. But the thing is, discount was given by some lottery wheel thingy on their site, and she couldn’t really know that we got it. So she either lied or the thing on site was just fake. We got very disappointed and the price without discount felt too much so we left. Very scammy practice.

After I came home I continued to code commission and finished it!

Played more Yume 2kki today. For the most part, pretty fruitless exploration today. As we were getting ready to leave, I got Mirror Room event and got into place with view on Twin Peaks.

Unexpectedly, there was a person there. Usually when I meet people in Yume 2kki they are either AFK or just silent, but they actually talked first. We had a small little chat and they proposed to walk me to the Rainy Apartments, which I heard of before but never been to. After some hesistatation I agreed, and our long, long journey begun. I already was pretty sleepy by this point, but it was one of the most beautiful paths I’ve seen in this game.

After meeting Hatsune Miku in Virtual City, we finally got to Rainy Apartments. No wonder they’re such a popular location, they’re definitely on level of Sewers and Secret Society. I love rainy places so much…

It was the end of our journey for today. It’s so weird to think that if random event didn’t happen, I wouldn’t meet this person and wouldn’t ever get guided to see this place. I’m so glad that it happened.

It’s unbearable to use computer at day — the sun shines too brightly. I often just spend the time in my bed waiting for it to go away.

Decided to meet brother today, and we went outside to eat and walk around.

Pretty cozy place, I really like the brick wall and lamps on the tree. We both ordered ramen:

After talking and eating food we went to shop and I bought cat socks and some cosmetics.

Another cool brick wall. I’m a big fan of these.

Maybe I’ll start going to gym soon. I have a very sedantary way of life, and I can feel my body feeling tired and bad constantly. I also want to get full medical checkup. While talking about that with brother, he told that we should probably make our dad also get one. Brother came home and talked with dad about it and he surprisingly agreed, so I guess we’ll arrange that soon.

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