Diary · #out · Page 2

January 6, 2025

Didn’t take much time between me getting up and me being driven to the apartment.

Took a short drive, and arrived to the building, where we met the realtor. After a short talk and ride on the elevator, we were in.

The apartment looked great! I was definitely not disappointed in it. Pretty much the same as it was on the photos. And what’s important, it actually has a computer table, although it’s on the balcony. But overall I really liked it.

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With not much hesistation, I said that I want to rent it. The realtor videocalled the owner and gave her phone to me. The owner was suprisingly an older lady. For some reason, because apartment looked modern, I expected the owner to be young too, but I guess not.

She told me that the previous tenant was awful, kept partying and inviting people and drinking, and she had to order cleaning service and fix a bunch of things. She was suspicious of me, and hoped that I wasn’t like this too. She said that she wants that the apartment would get checked every month, which kinda sucks. I understand her, but I for sure don’t like the prospect of being monitored this often. But I guess it is what it is.

So it looks like I’ll be moving in in 2 days! Moving all my stuff will for sure be annoying, but whatevs. After this, we went to the restaurant.

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Got home when it was already dark. It was really cold outside.

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January 3, 2025

Felt very sad and anxious for the first part of the day. Brother left job early, and came over and told me that we should go to gym today. I didn’t sleep enough, so I was really sleepy and told him that I’m gonna sleep more and we should go at our usual time.

Then he went out to do whatever he needed to do, while I did my usual morning routine (and didn’t sleep since), and then got up and started my day.

Continued being sad for the most part. At 6 PM brother called me telling me to get ready, so after 5 minutes I was in the car going to the gym. ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

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Moon was looking sharp today, with Venus behind. It was snowing a little bit.

We went to the pool today. After swimming for a bit, we finally decided to go to the "hot area", which includes hot tubs kinda stuff.

We went inside the Jacuzzi. It was my first time ever, and it was for sure great to chill after all the anxiety.

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After that we went into Finnish Sauna and then went for some other things I forgot name of. It was really really nice, especially given that I was feeling anxious before.

When we came back from the gym, we found a surprise on our car 🐈 🐾

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We didn’t even bother cleaning it. Went to a restaurant after.

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Fancy steak presentation. My phone got to 0% battery at this point. Talked more about ██████████████████████, and then I went home. Got onto my computer and ███████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

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It was snowing at night.

January 1, 2025

Slept for 12 hours today. Went back home from parents.

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December 31, 2024

Got up a little late, and dad picked me up. We got our food ready and started eating at around 7 PM.

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Pat my cat a lot.

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After that went back in my room and continued writing my new blog post. I was a little sleepy, but sleeping right now would be a crime.

Parents called me to get downstairs, since president started speaking to the nation. It was 20 minutes before new year.

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A lot of words. About war, courage, peace, death and everything else that happened.


Well, it’s the end of the year. Let’s summarize the events.

  • Launched Nekoweb
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  • Froze Whispy
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  • Finally got medical examination, relieved some of my worries
  • Tried various anti-anxiety medications. Most stopped working or had too bad side effects, so stopped doing all. But after doing them all I feel much better! Makes me appreciate my hyperactiveness too because I’m so productive
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It was a good year. Certainly much better than 2023. Hopefully 2025 will be finally the year of peace and freedom. I also aim to make a million dollars in 2025!!! Happy new year to everyone who’s reading this, even though the earliest you could read it will be in February…

Tags: #out

December 29, 2024

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Roommate brought 2 tiny hamsters and told to look after them, and he’ll gift them to his girlfriend in a couple of hours. They’re pretty cute, even though one of them pooped on my hand.

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Funnily enough, her girlfriend didn’t really appreciate the gift I think. This is why I don’t think gifting pets is a good idea, unless the person specifically said they want them. It’s a big responsibility to care for a pet.

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December 27, 2024

Determination.

I’m so determined to make a million dollars, its kinda comical at this point. My friends and random people probably associate me with a million dollars at this point because I just can’t stop talking about it. Every day I’m trying new things to get closer to it, and I’m slowly but surely succeeding. I’m always certain that I’ll make a million dollars soon.

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Wanted to ████████████████████████████████, but brother made me go to gym again. Uguuu, I want to code instead of doing it…

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After gym, went to restaurant and ate some yummies.

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Then got back home and took a nap.

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December 24, 2024

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Realtor called me and told me that apartment I was interested (see December 13 page) in is now free, and now just needs cleaning service! I’ll probably be able to see it at the end of the week, yayy!

Went to supermarket with brother and bought a tonnnn of various yummy things.

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When we came out of supermarket, it was snowing!!! Christmas is SO saved!!! Somehow this is rare nowadays.

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Went to parents after.

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House welcomed me with Christmas tree and cat lurking from above.

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We prepared for Svyatvechir («Holy Dinner»).

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Everything was tasty and good. Then we ate some candies.

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And I went to my room. After a little while my dad brought me cat :3

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I fell asleep at 0:00 but since that’s much earlier than I usually go to sleep, I woke up 1.5 hours later. I went downstairs to pee and had the most expensive midnight snack.

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Surprisingly, cat didn’t run away when I went downstairs, so I opened the window and got back into cozy bed.

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Even though it’s really cold, I always open my window just because I can’t feel cozy without it also being cold while I’m under blanket.

Merry Christmas!

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December 20, 2024

Legs still hurt from gyming a day ago. I told brother telling that I don’t want to go to gym today because of this, but he insisted we go and that I should just train hands instead. We kinda argued for a while, but because he’s usually really forceful we ended up going.

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The overall mood was pretty bad. We kept arguing about random stuff. After a hour of training we went home, in the same bad mood. I just listened to music in my earphones.

When I got driven home, I’ve decided to walk a little and get some groceries. It was restful, especially with chill music in my ears.

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Good stuff (must suck not being able to see it) \/

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Tried 99% chocolate for the first time. It’s bitter. I don’t really like it, but regardless, I always wanted to try as many chocolate %’s as possible. After all these experiments that lasted for a year, I think I can say that I like 70% chocolate the most.

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December 18, 2024

Had to rise Nekoweb prices a little to account for crazy Patreon and Payoneer fees.

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Went to gym and ran 4.33km this time. Another high score. Seems like I kinda reached equilibrium at this point, because I can walk/ran for infinite amount of time now without getting exhausted.

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I’m unsatisfied with this phone’s camera at all. It’s so bad at night and the app itself is really awful. Pixel’s camera was infinitely better. My next phone is definitely gonna be Pixel, probably 9, because I think that might be the most beautiful phone made in the past 6 years.

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December 16, 2024

As always, woke up a lot of times during sleep. Seems like when I don’t take any meds I always have constant sleep interruptions.

While sleeping, someone started screaming very loudly and angrily outside. I couldn’t really hear exactly what they were saying, because I was in half asleep half awake state. Eventually I fell asleep again and had a dream that I went to window to look who was screaming and fell down. Luckily there was some building structure just under it and it caught me, and then I managed to get back inside with help of some stranger.

Rainy, windy and cloudy today. Basically perfect weather, although during winter I would prefer it to snow instead. Went to supermarket to buy some groceries, and enjoyed the weather for a while.

After a 2 week break, we went to gym today. Brother was recovering from surgery which is why we didn’t go for so long.

After swimming in the pool we went to a Georgian restaurant and ate some tasty things.

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The moon was peeking out from time to time.

I fell asleep when I got home. At night, I felt quite manic but then got tired and went back to bed. It’s still raining and I’m just laying in bed thinking about constant movement of time.

Tags: #dream #out #food

December 6, 2024

While I was making breakfast, brother came over. He recently had a wisdom tooth removed, so he spent a week at the hospital.

Dad called, and he invited us to a restaurant, since it’s an important day for him. I started to prepare while brother went to pick him up. I went outside and it was already dark.

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Even though it’s cold, I like to stand in darkness in warm clothes.

We got to the restaurant and got our food.

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After the restaurant I went home and fell asleep. Woke up with headache (so common when napping). Fixed some atabook stuff and went back to bed.

November 24, 2024

So tired. Went to visit parents today because of █████████████████. Touched cat after so long.

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Then I went home and layed in bed for a long time. Insanely hard to do anything. Managed to finally ███████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████.

November 13, 2024

Woke up without anxiety and feeling pretty well. I assume Lyrica works. I went on my website, which I didn’t do for a while, and noticed that it’s snowing now. It’s code I made a while ago, and it’s nice to see it in action. I got up and… it was also snowing outside O_o, kinda a crazy coincidence. I love snow!!! Finally it’s time for winter. I cooked breakfast and then took Zoloft. Well here it goes… my first time with SSRIs, I hope it’ll all be good. By the time this page unlocks for you to read, I’ll already be a month on it.

Went to gym and ran 2.76km on treadmill. Running with earphones feels easier because it’s less boring. After gym went to grill restaurant with brother.

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It was nice. Went home and coded ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ Day ended on a sad note.

Tags: #out #food

November 8, 2024

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Went to gym today. Was angry, anxious and sad all day. After the gym we went to a restaurant, which was the best part of the day.

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November 6, 2024

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Went to gym with brother today. After the gym we went to a nearby seafood restaurant and bought a bunch of… seafood.

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My brother didn’t like some seafood (mussels) but I liked everything. It was actually the first time when I got to eat non-canned mussels, and they were great.

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